It is strange that I sweat the small stuff so much in daily life but big changes don’t faze me as much. When something small and difficult happens, my reaction tends toward, “I KNOW this isn’t a big deal, but it is such a big deal to ME and no one else will care!”
Recently though, I have had a big addition to the responsibilities of my job, one that I am not qualified for but also one that no one else can really do. It is an actual big deal. Yet, I am strangely calm.
I think the calm in real crisis comes from a simple fact: this is not the end of the world. We compare crises to everything being wrong, and we see that we are still winning.
On the other hand, I compare small things to everything being right, which makes me feel bad. Strange, right?
It makes me understand why so many productivity gurus advocate gratitude. After all, being grateful is comparison to how much worse things could be, and staying calm. Always expecting perfection makes us miserable, ungrateful, and still imperfect.
So as I muddle through the serious newness at work while trying to stay on top of all my past work, I want to remember that this isn’t the end of the world. I have a lot to be thankful for, and those things can help me get through what ever comes next.